I have found that through my entire experience of fundraising, applying for my visa, and my training, the unknown has been a huge theme. My doubts for the future and how God can use me have been at the forefront of my mind, and I have come to the conclusion that steps of faith are wildly important. I grew up thinking that to be successful, I needed to know exactly what I wanted to do, but that has pushed me to second guess all my ideas. I thought that I needed a grand calling to a specific career, but I have found that I can be used if I am intentional about pursuing Christ in my career. It is impossible to know the future completely, so there really is no point in trying ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ .