13 days. I am moving to the Middle East in just thirteen short days, God willing. I have a lot of feelings about this. It seems like each day brings a new emotion or feeling. Somedays I am so ready and just absolutely stoked to be moving overseas, while other days I get teary thinking about saying goodbye to so many people I love. I am already a pretty emotional, so I have found it challenging to balance my feelings and thoughts. In all of this emotional mess, God has really been teaching me about His character and His love for me.
I remember early in the support raising journey, a GoCorps alum reminding me that God is not afraid of my emotions. How freeing is that!? God is not afraid of the emotions I am experiencing, instead, in my emotion He calls me near to Him so that in His presence I can experience something deeper, peace.
There are so many examples in scripture of prayers filled with all kind of emotions, I mean look at all the Psalms. David turned to God in grief, pain, shame, joy, everything. I think it is so cool that in so many of his emotional prayers, his posture eventually turns to praise and peace in knowing who God is. He recognizes that in all his emotions, God is faithful and stable.
I too want to worship our Father who, in all my feels, is near. He is not afraid of my emotions. He offers peace and truth to stand upon. Our God is tenderhearted to us and wow I love Him.