Earlier this year, my friend sent me the picture above. Just a couple weeks after I got that picture, news about the corona virus started flooding my newsfeed. And though I’m pretty far from the epicenter of the outbreak, many of my friends and family have reached out to me with concerns and some have urged me to come home. It’s only been not even to 2 months into 2020 and I feel like that picture above is already so true.
I personally feel fine though and my team is fine as well. So we’re not going anywhere! We’re all safe and have been taking the pre-cautions of the area around us. We always wear our mask when we go out, wash our hands often, and get our temperature taken when going to the grocery store. Our apartment complex has also been heavily cleaning the elevator and only allowing exits/entrances through certain gates. With all these measures the city is taking, I definitely feel safe and not worried.
After all, The Word says “do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication let your requests be made known to G-d. And the peace of G-d, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Chr-st Jesus” -Philippians 4:6-7 (ESV). There are some days when I am more worried than others, but every day I’m choosing to not live in fear and instead put my hope in Chr-st, and continue to rely on Him daily.
What’s actually been on my mind more is that I just have SO much free time, and not sure what to do with it. I thought that by coming here, I would finally get to start on ministry and get to doing things right away. But with the virus spreading, most people are urged to stay indoors unless needed to go out for groceries. And with that, there’s been some days that I’m restless and have the on and off questioning of why He called me to be here, when I feel like I’m barely doing anything and mostly just reading, playing games, and watching movies all day. That is the reality of the current situation though, and I’ve been relying on G-d to help me get through this season of waiting and wondering.
What doesn’t change through all of this? G-d Himself. He is with me just as much as He was with me during some of my best moments of ministry and growth in college. I’ve been able to rest in this a lot lately, and it led me to sit and reflect on His goodness and to be thankful for the things I do have and have been blessed while I’ve been here for the past month.
So far, I’ve been blessed with/taking joy in:
- a fun, quirky roommate that’s been really helpful as my personal translator :)
- a really great, supportive team
- experiencing what it’s like to be a part of a big family (my roommate and I have had a lot of bonding time with our other teammates kids, a total of about 10 kids. and I’m an only child, so it’s definitely been a fun time!)
- seeing the way G-d is working here though the orphanages and another organization run by believers
- having fun and bonding with the kids a the orphanages (there was one day we played with them at a frozen over lake near the orphanage)
- slow mornings that I can spend more quality time with G-d
- the small group that I’m in with all women and is multi-generational (for the past couple years throughout college the structure of small groups was always college/young adult and co-ed, so it’s been a nice change)
- quality time with my teammates and their kids! (I’ve never played Catan so much in my life)
- technology! it’s been great being able to keep in touch with my supporters and friends back home through text/video chat :)
- thoughtful and caring friends and family that reach out to me because they’re concerned
- little success such as being able to say 我是美国人 (I am American) to locals
So yes, there are a lot of things to question and be restless about. But there are also many praises to the L-rd. I know that though I can’t say for certain why I’ve had to be in this place during the outbreak, but I know that He is still good and looking over me. And He’s surely blessed me with so much, and probably more than I can see.
How has G-d blessed you recently? It’s probably more than you can imagine despite whatever you may be going through.
Here’s to Counting Every Blessing :)