A few weeks ago, a woman who has been in our program for four years accepted Christ. What rejoicing! What joy there was in our program and in heaven that one who was lost has been found! That she finally was able to refute the lies she’d been believing in favor of the glorious truth God offers us.
This week, two women left our program suddenly and unexpectedly. What sorrow. What mourning that they heard and believed the lies of the enemy telling them that they are unworthy of love and healing.
When “M” accepted Christ, I was struck by overwhelming awe and gratitude to be a part of something like this. To see what God is doing in the lives of our women and their children. I thought, “this is why we do what we do.”
This week, I can feel my heart breaking. I cannot see the light or the purpose in this situation. I cannot feel the hope or joy that was so prevalent just a few weeks ago. And yet it is still there. Because what I know to be true is that God loves these two women more than I ever could. He is fiercely protective of them and He knows perfectly what they need. He has also proven, time and time again, that He is trustworthy. So even as my heart breaks, I am learning to open my hands and my heart to Him. To remember that in the midst of the pain and the darkness that there is still light and hope and joy. I don’t have to feel it all the time, but it is still there.
I don’t know what kind of impact the last several months at Casa Adalia have had on these two women. I don’t know what their future will hold. I don’t even know if I’ll ever see them again. And that is sad and hard and it is good for me to grieve over that. But I do know that God is perfectly in control, and that is enough.