One of my favorite passages in all of literature is the scene in “The Horse and His Boy” where Shasta is going over the mountains between Archenland and Narnia. He’s weary, he’s alone, he feels like he has been left behind. And as he travels through the fog and clouds something begins to walk alongside him. The reader, of course, knows this is Aslan. Shasta begins to talk to him and tell all his troubles. Finally he says, “Don’t you think it was bad luck to meet so many lions?” (158). Aslan goes on to tell Shasta that there was only one lion. One lion throughout all his life and every encounter. As Aslan speaks, he reveals that he was the lion, and he was guiding Shasta along the way, protecting him. Aslan says, “And I was the lion you do not remember who pushed the boat in which you lay, a child near death, so that it came to shore where a man sat, wakeful at midnight, to receive you” (158).
I have such a vivid memory of this passage because my family had the Focus on the Family Radio Theater audio book, and this moment is beautifully done. I still get chills every time I hear it. Aslan reveals that he was there with Shasta through each step and beat of his life, guiding in each moment and circumstance. This season in my life has given me the opportunity to have a similar moment with the Lord. As I have turned to look back along the path of my life, I have seen how the Lord has been guiding and leading me to get to this point.
There are many doors that he has closed, many paths that he has led me on that have looked scary or wrong, but as I have trusted and followed him he has been faithful to guide and provide. I see now, that each change of direction and season had a purpose and were teaching me or preparing me to take this next step of faith and trust and commit to this two year season of mission work. Faithful to provide, the Lord had prepared me. Faithful to guide, the Lord has led me. And faithful, the Lord has been with me in every step along the way. It is so important to remember this and acknowledge this.
On the days when I have felt discouraged or attacked by the enemy, remembering this truth has kept me going. On the days when it is hard to pick up the phone and make one more call Jesus has reminded me that I need only ask and he will give me the strength to do it. The Lord, my God has been with and he will never leave me.Through each day I am leaning to rely more on God and to trust even more greatly in his plan, promises, and will. Someone told me at the start of all this that the safest place to be was in the center of the Lord's will. It hasn't always looked or felt safe, it's been challenging, scary, and daunting more times than I want to admit. But the Lord continues to hold me in his hand, and I know he will not let me fall.
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Lewis, C.S. The Horse and His Boy. New York, Macmillan Publishing, 1954.