This season of support raising has resulted in a unique situation for me. In the midst of asking others to invest and join in my ministry, my family has been called to live on the East Coast, the very opposite of California. As hard as this decision was for my parents, I firmly believe that this is exactly where God wants them. It has been two weeks since I have said goodbye to my family and transitioned into couch surfing along the West Coast.
The number one thing I have been told about working on the field is to be flexible. Because this is not one of my strong points, God has been growing me in this area greatly before I leave the country. Support raising is learning to live and understand that life is not about yourself. It is about giving others the opportunity to serve the Lord by serving you through what God has given them. This seeming disadvantage of not having a home base while I am gaining support has only resulted in his glory and my faith growing.
It has hit me at various points and at various degrees that I have no home. When I write my thank you letters I have no idea what address to write. When I am overseas and I get homesick, what does that mean? When I come back to the states, what does home mean? These emotions have been hard to navigate, and if I am being honest they really suck. Yet, the only way I can manage how to analyze and process this strange phase I am at is through the Word. 2 Corinthians 5:1-10 says this:
For we know that if the tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. 2 For in this tent we groan, longing to put on our heavenly dwelling, 3 if indeed by putting it on we may not be found naked. 4 For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened—not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. 5 He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee.
6 So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, 7 for we walk by faith, not by sight. 8 Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9 So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him. 10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.
Although by no means have I made it to this point of confidence in my home being eternal, it is where I strive to be. When push comes to shove a house is a building. As cliché as it is, a home is determined by the people who make up the dwelling. My eternal home is overflowing with fellow God worshipers who are gathered together praising the Lamb as one (Revelation 7:9-12). Please pray with me that out Comforter would come alongside me in this season as I would cling to this truth. I miss my family greatly and wish I could be with them during this season. Please also pray that my support would continue to come in. The Lord has been faithful thus far and I cannot wait to see how else He provides!
I would also like to note that I have been very blessed and many have opened up their houses to me. The Lord has been faithful and I do know where I am living for the duration of my time in the states.