Growth in Departure

As the time of my departure draws near I just keep thinking I am not nervous, I am excited. But even excitement seemed a little fake. Now, I can honestly say that I am sad. I really do hate saying goodbye. I have learned so much about the place I will be and the team I will serve with that I can say that my excitement is genuinely aimed at this mission. But this sadness is overwhelming. How many times I can say I know God has great plans for me, people for me to love and to love me in my mission field; how many times can I hear that from family and friends. I am still human and want to cling to the people I know here at home. Two years finally feels like an awfully long time…

I wrote that first paragraph a week ago...It still makes my eyes form tears. These last few days God has convinced me that this adventure will be wonderful and I can trust him for whatever happens afterwards. I can't really say that I am happy to be headed off but my excitement has grown.  Phil. 4:6-7 "do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."