It’s almost here! The time has almost come! In the words of my favorite Veggie Tales song: “It’s time? It’s time? Did he just say it’s time?” (Josh and the Great Wall for those who might be Veggie Tale challenged). Father-willing, I will be leaving this Saturday. I will be saying goodbye to my family tomorrow, and start off on my adventure!
These past couple days with my family have been bittersweet as I will miss them terribly, but I am excited to start this adventure. It’s also interesting that it hasn’t yet sunk in. It still feels like a far ways off. Even though my bags are packed and I have said goodbye to my home, friends, and a lot of my family, it still doesn’t seem real. I wonder when it will…
I’ve had a lot of ups and downs these past few weeks due to last minute crises of visa problems as well as a new monthly financial partner. Through it all, I know my Father has been working. I came to an interesting conclusion about my worrying about my visa (and other things as well). I like to worry. Even when Jesus showed me how He will and has provided for me, I still wanted to worry. It made me realize that if I was worrying about something, that meant that maybe I felt like I was in control a little bit. I always want that control over my life, and I even hurt myself by worrying if it means I feel a little bit in control. Of course, when you’re worrying, it feels like nothing is in control. It’s a bad cycle.
I spent the last two weeks in training, and I was able to learn so much more about myself and about God. He is so good, and He wants us to be His hands and feet in this world. I am so excited to start this journey with Him. Well, in some ways, we have already started. I’ve been in contact with my team leaders and teammates, and I’m excited to see them very soon. I’ve been looking forward to this ever since I was accepted, and I know that the Peace of God has been on me since the beginning. I don’t know where this might lead, but I am ready for Him to lead. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and I am in His care.
See you on the other side of the world!