Walking in the Dark

Yes, December is here, and I am still in the U.S. My acquisition of a work visa has been a longer process than anyone had anticipated. Admittedly, that can be pretty frustrating at times. There are a lot of unanswered questions that run through my head, and it’s easier to just not think about them rather than to seek out the answers, and instead keep my eyes on what’s directly in front of me. It feels like I’m walking on a path in the dark, with light only enough to see what is exactly in front of me, not even what’s beyond the next step. I don’t know what next week looks like, or next month. All I know is today, and sometimes I have a pretty good idea about tomorrow, but even that’s not definite.

Maybe it’s better that way though. Fellow ministry workers keep suggesting that it’s good preparation for the patience and adaptability that I will need on the field. Right now, I can’t get ahead of myself and go crazy with preparations, or boast about future plans when my departure is still ambiguous. I can, however, still hold myself accountable to use my time wisely each day. Right now, that means planning a packing strategy and independently studying the local language, as well as gathering as much advice and information about East Asia, and even travelling tips from friends and family!

I can either look at this time in-between as a burden or a blessing; I choose to try to see the blessing!

Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

James 4:13-15 “Now listen, you who say, ‘Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.’”