I am learning more and more that life with God is a rollercoaster for sure. There is so much excitement and energy walking in the will of the Lord and it is a true privilege and joy to let Him take you on the greatest adventures. However, I don’t remember seeing some of these twists and turns when I got in line for this ride. This past season of support raising and vision casting has been both an honor and a challenge. I have loved getting to meet with my community to share what God is up to and to share my burden and compassion for where God was leading me next. However, I have also further clarified for myself that I am not someone who can easily sit at a computer for a whole day and have no human interaction. But, God has been so good in the midst of this interesting season to show Himself present and moving in even the smallest of details.
However, even knowing that I was in for an adventure, I thought I could see and predict what would be coming; but only God knows and holds tomorrow. I have recently had to start looking for a new placement for ministry for the next two years and I did not see this turn coming at all. It put a shock throughout my whole body and all I could do was focus on the present moment and question what God was up to. I prepared for this for months. I bought the right clothes for the weather, learned as much as I could about ministry to that people and religious group, and more and more everyday I could see myself living there. And what am I supposed to do now?
Change affects everyone differently and I thought I was so ready for change. But I was really only ready for the change I could control and see coming (which I am realizing now isn’t much of a change at all, that’s called a plan). But even with this new perspective of myself and new decision up ahead, the Lord has been so gracious to whisper wisdom and encouragement in my ear through friends, family, and my time with Him.
The GoCorps slogan is ‘Go Beyond Ordinary’ and when I chose to join this program, I had no idea what that meant for me personally. Ordinary means something different for every person and their experience. For some, ordinary is choosing to remain in a family business or trade in the same city or country they grew up in for the rest of their lives. For others, ordinary means choosing your own path and deciding where you want to live or what work you want to do. For me, ordinary already included going into the mission field abroad; however all within my own limits, control, and choosing. I told God multiple times throughout my life and this process to send me where He wanted me to go and I believe I meant it; but I thought that through this obedience I could still be in control in certain things. I thought that moving forward in the will of God was a straight line, but it is the world’s wildest and most beautiful roller coaster of all.
Whether you desire to make the choices, or desire to know all the answers for your future, we all can be assured that while there is definitely a journey ahead, we have the best person on our side. Jesus is in control of our adventure and knows what twists and turns are ahead. But even more than that, Jesus is our rollercoaster buddy! He is there to assure us that everything will be ok when we are about to take off and are nervous for what’s to come. He is there to hold our hand on every scary loop and surprise. And He is there to smile and laugh when we finish a season that we never thought we could get out of, but in the end we see His goodness and a new found strength.
Thank you Jesus for walking beside me through every season even when I question where You are taking me. Thank you for revealing deeper meanings to Scriptures that show me that life with You is beautifully mysterious and that while everything around may seem uncertain that I can be certain that trusting in You is the only foundation I need. Thank you for placing me in a community that cares for, encourages, and prays with me even when I avoid vulnerability sometimes. Thank you for allowing me the greatest honor to serve You every day and to be a co-laborer with You to reunite the family of God. And thank you for always remaining who You say You are.
“Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.”
- Proverbs 3:6 (NLT)
“He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to His name.”
- Psalm 23:3 (NLT)
“Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.”
- Psalm 116:7 (CSB)