Breathe In. Breathe Out.
This is how much time I have left until I catch my flight to Berlin, Germany.
How does this make me feel? Anxious. Nervous. Excited.
This is the moment that I have been preparing for for over a year now and here I am: saying my last goodbyes and turning them into “see-you-laters”, packing up my room and my suitcases, enjoying the last of the American food that I will have in awhile, stocking up on peanut butter, filling out final paperwork, raising the remaining of my support, and convincing myself I don’t need to bring my entire closet with me (so hard).
Because these next two weeks are going to fly by so quickly knowing that I still have so much to do, it’s almost a battle for me not to allow myself to be overwhelmed with everything. What do I do when I am packing and unpacking every week to go out of town because of events and on top of that want to spend time with everyone, but still needing to meet with people to raise support? I rest.
Okay, Diamond. What the heck do you mean REST … all these things you have to do and you’re talking about RESTING?!
Well yes...rest by resting in the Lord.
“ 1I am at rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. 2 He alone is my salvation, my stronghold; I will never be shaken.”
- Psalm 62:1-2
Throughout all the chaos and anxiety that wants to go through the roof, I feel that the Spirit is telling me to rest -- and not worry. When I allow worry and anxiety to get out of control, I am not fully trusting that God will do just what He said He would do. I start to believe that it’s my turn to get control of this situation because God isn’t doing it the way that I think He should.
We’re all guilty of this. But thank you Jesus for grace because your girl here is in constant need of it every. Single. Day.
With my launch date rapidly approaching and still needing to raise the final $500 of my support, I constantly have to remind myself to rest in God and to take it one step at a time.