We have our moments.
Moments where we feel like things aren't going right because they aren't going our way or the way we think they should go. When we go through times of suffering and adversity, we feel like we have been abandoned and sometimes hopeless. When we get to this point, we feel like we have the right to plead our case to God.
This is where Job was. This is where I am.
Now I am not saying that I am currently going through a time of suffering, but how I relate to Job is what you will understand in just a moment.
As I am going through the story of Job, I have been stuck on Chapter 9 for days. It is intriguing to me because Job is wanting to "take God to court" and plead with Him on his innocence. Job wants to know what he did wrong, why God is allowing him to suffer and why God seems to have abandoned him.
“Hurt, pain, and suffering do come upon the righteous for purposes only God knows. We could say to Job, ‘God did not strike you, it was Satan.’ But we would have still have to add, ‘but God was pleased to allow Satan to strike you for greater good that will be revealed when you see God.’” - Don Smith
Job says these two statements in Chapter 9 that send my mind on a race:
" 15 Even if I were in the right, I could not answer. I could only beg my judge for mercy... 20 Even if I were in the right, my own mouth would condemn me; if I were blameless, my mouth would declare me guilty."
Job suggests that if God were to respond to his want of taking Him to court, he would be well aware that he would have no chance of winning his case. He knew enough about his human righteousness that he desperately needed God’s grace, not His justice. Why does Job know that he wouldn’t win (besides the obvious fact that he is literally talking about going to court with THE God)? Well, Job wouldn’t be able to win his case because he doesn’t have a mediator.
“33 There is no mediator between us, to lay his hand on both of us.”
Can you take a wild guess who the mediator would be?
If you said the one and only Jesus Christ, then you are correct! What is insane about this statement is that Job is longing for Jesus without actually knowing that he is! He recognized that sinners needed a reconciler with a holy God, which is why he longed for God to be a man like himself. In Chapter 16 and 19, Job picks up his plea again, realizing that sinners needed a mediator before God. He was hoping and praying for a redeemer, not even knowing that God would send one hundreds of years later to die on a cross!
When we arrive to Chapter 10, Job begins to go through what he would say to God face-to-face. We all have had or continue to have those times where we do this exact thing. In verse 2 Job makes a statement before God: “Let me know why you prosecute me.” The Christian that has gone through or is currently going through has asked God the same question. My main man Charles Spurgeon suggests different answers on why God may allow it:
- To humble us
- To show us His power to uphold us
- To develop our graces
- To enter the fellowship of His sufferings
- To test our earnestness
- Because we are harboring one sin that we won’t turn over to Him
- Because we don’t fully understand the plan of salvation
God often prosecutes both “saints and sinners” to help us deal with our sin.
Job recognized his need for God's grace. I desire to do the same daily. I feel as if I have the right to go to God and plead why I should be in Berlin at this very moment. I feel like I can go to Him and ask Him, "Lord, what are you doing? Why does it seem that the more I reach out, the farther Berlin seems?" But who am I? I mean, of course I can ask God these questions, He is my Father after all. It just comes down to where my heart is when I ask God what He is doing. It comes down to me humbling myself and realizing my need for His unending grace in the midst of my frustration and anxiety. It comes down to me recognizing that Jesus is my mediator in the midst of my court cases when I know that I am guilty if I try to stand before God in my own righteousness.
In the midst of everything that is going on, I will continue to thank and worship God just like Job did when it appeared that he had lost everything. So should you.
“God sometimes burns up our comforts to make our hidden sins run out.” -Charles Spurgeon